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Grapes and figs and apples and berries fruiting in my neighborhood.

Feeling well enough physically to go do things outside. Feeling better mentally after going outside.

A long walk and a quick bus ride.

Photographs of bunnies courtesy of https://kaberabbits.tumblr.com/.

A cool breeze. The weather generally relenting a bit.

Views of Mt. Hood from the slopes of Mt. Tabor.

An enormous fallen tree covered in moss and the saplings growing out of it.

Getting my brain to be a notch or two quieter by writing and walking.

Sitting in the sunshine surrounded by tall grass and listening to birds and squirrels.

Taking photographs of assorted trees and flowers.

My stuffed animal friend Bunbun that I have had since I was born. (Technically before. Bunbun was given to my mom at a baby shower while she was pregnant with me.)

A shower.
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Air conditioning. Running water. Freezers. Water bottles.

Food I can eat. Fresh fruit in particular.

Medication that helps me breathe and medication that helps me remember why.

Friends I can spend time with. Thank you.

The ability to buy a cold drink and a snack (and an excuse to sit in air conditioning).

Bookstores. Clever new (and old!) sf&f books that interrogate the problems of the genre with deep love and rightful anger and snarky humor. Used books. Sale books. Read-it-all-and-put-it-back-but-I’m-gonna-need-to-buy-a-copy-to-re-read books.

Instant access to information and communication via the Internet.

Trees. Thank you, trees.

Pillows.

Ceiling fan.

Views of the sun and the moon, however, hazy.

Things that smell of mint (or catnip!)

The coffee ice cubes turning out to be tasty.
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Today's gratitudes:

Friends. I'm terrified to admit it, but I have an online community I turn to for support, a family that appreciates me, local folks to hang out with - yay! - which is really strange, interests that help me to interact socially, a fair grasp of what I want and need relationshipwise and a good chunk of it already happening, some peers I like at my job, and a chance at not completely sucking at all of that.

Liminal spaces. I walked across a bridge that is currently closed and a construction site because they are rebuilding it. I stood in the exact middle of the closed highway at the high point of the bridge, in the sun and wind and strangeness of it all, and took pictures of the river and the distant Mt. Hood. I saw exposed metal grids and bizarre pipes and joins being installed and slabs of wood and rusty bolts apparently uninstalled. I collected scraps of metal. I mean to send them, at least some, to [personal profile] kyleri to make shiny things out of them! (If you haven't yet, and you like hand crafted jewelry and/or crap free body products, check out [personal profile] kyleri's website, http://thevagabondtabby.com/ and if you want a picture description for anything I will provide...) I went up and down two sidewalk Bridges to Nowhere littered with sad and awful trash to get between diverging lanes as what seemed like the far side of the bridge, but wasn't, as the wide roadway heaved itself up and over the railroad tracks and fell down into the withering industrial southeast riverside under the hot sun.

Swearing, brainweasel bait: Read more... )

The opportunities I've had of late to geek out, particularly including talking writing with [personal profile] alexseanchai, theology with offline friend ALB, and Magic: the Gathering with my partner S.

Wifi in coffee shops. And iced minty green tea.
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I recycled some papers I needed to get rid of.

I will see some people I like tonight... and... I saw two(ish) new friends yesterday.

I got new books yesterday.

The sun shining.

Water.
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Loads of cute animal photos and suchlike shiny things from sweet_sparrow.

http://sweet-sparrow.dreamwidth.org/723470.html

Soothing animal sounds:

(video and audio):
Canadian lynx purring: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_0jJiM7nyU
Squirrel eating nuts and rustling around: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iGoDNlKY-g
Loon on water calling: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdDLAQO7t0E

(audio in video format):
Crickets: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKmRkS1os7k
Cicadas: (turn sound down or it will be loud) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGKH6IYD30k
Loon Call: (with explanation, some still pics): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ENNzjy8QjU

I can do some things. And one of them is share soothing adorable animals.
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This afternoon I went to the Sandy River.

Read more... )
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Petted FOUR cats on neighborhood walk this morning. Porch Cat, Calico Neighbor Cat, the little bitty mostly-white calico who seems to be their neighbor and rival, and a black and slightly-tuxedo cat out for a walk with his person.

Did a bit of chores of the paperwork-y sort, and communicated reasonably well with S about chores’n’stuff.

Sent my sibling B a picture of me with my genderqueer-flag-striped cat-face button!

Today met up with the excellent [personal profile] kengr at Powell’s City of Books in the afternoon. We had a great conversation. Hooray for people I like to talk to actually living somewhere nearish! Did not buy ALL the things though I was tempted. Also I got a couple of books by C.J. Cherryh, who is a very good writer. Mwahahaha.

Had a great walk. [Content note: Exercise, food, brain weirdness, body weirdness] Read more... )

Found some things that might could be useful while walking. Made tentative plans/options for hopefully-productive tomorrow.
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Things which have, today, delighted me:

Improvements in my overall mental and physical functioning of late; most especially, the energy to do small practical things and random acts of kindness without nearly always stalling out somewhere between the idea and the result.

People being happy about things I have said and done for them or for the world in general: an online friend who got a package, a physical-space neighbor who is possibly on the way to being an actual friendly acquaintance, a partner who gave & got help, listening, and smiles, a passerby who called us superheroes for putting out a smoldering leaf pile where someone had tossed a cigarette.

Petting numerous cats. So many! So fluffy! So purr! 3 of 4 cat sightings successfully negotiated to pets on my morning walk, plus 1 kitty this evening on the way back from the car. Cats yesterday, too!

Our garden plot. The shade of the central fig tree is extraordinarily peaceful. In various plots, there are strawberries, blackberries, raspberries, and blueberries in some stage of bearing fruit. In our plot, we have lots of herbs, lots of things growing that aren’t harvestable at the moment, and a tremendous bumper crop of green beans! I am managing - so far - to handle totally-reasonable-in-origin worries about watering enough, weeding enough, and logging required community service hours despite the entirely unreasonable level of anxiety the provoke. With the rich compost that I nurtured on my shovel and the herbs that I grew in my mouth and the sun on my back and the wind on my face, it’s pretty doable.

Dreamwidth, and the community I find there. Thanks.
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today walked to laurelhurst park, yesterday late to mt tabor

Afternoon:

Sunlight.

Flowers. Many flowers—

Pond. Ripples. Reflected trees. Duck.

Stop to rest—

Leathery shiny magnolia leaves. Cottonwood fluff. Buckshorn plantain stems to weave.

Evening:

Lavender scent and sticky resin. Globe alium in bud, bouncy texture like a kooshball covered in beads. Rhythmic tapping of running hand along a wrought iron fence.

Sunset at the reservoir. Purple fading clouds. Wind in tall grass and clover and weeds. Gray gritty graveled path. Pink-purple-gray reflection on the reservoir water still, and the greeny darkness of pine trees on the ridge. A cool breeze on a warm day; the open air in a high place.
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Getting chores done.

Pleasant interactions with S in the evening, and getting to bed on time.

Smells of berries and apples.

The opportunity to take a shower.

Feeling okay at a range of temperatures.

(I'm annoyed at Things and ouchy and tired but I'm not going to let that stop me.)

Oh, and S made coffee yay!
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Catalpa trees are blooming. They are huge green trees with huge green leaves and they get these enormous spikes of white flowers that aren't small y any means, and they smell sweet.

On my walk today I stopped by an archway in a fence entirely covered in masses of star jasmine. One of my favorite flower smells.

It's sunny, thank goodness.

I have cashews and berries to eat.

A neighbor was helpful to me, even though I've hardly ever spoken to him.

Crows are talkative and reasonable feathered folk, and their glossy black feathers are very beautiful.
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Yesterday we went to Sauvie Island and picked berries at a U-Pick farm. My partner and I admired the distant peak of Mt Hood, the boats on the river, and the green and rolling fields on the way over, argued about driving, compromised, and got to the farm with plenty of water bottles and sunscreen. The strawberries were basically done; the blackberries and blueberries were just starting to come ripe; the raspberries were in their glory. The sky was blue and enormous and the sun was very bright and warm. A breeze off the river cooled the whole island. The cottonwood trees left drifts of fluff on the grass. Birds sat on stumps in the river and trilled in the grasses and copses. We picked, lazily enough, for several hours, and filled two pints of tart thumb-sized early blackberries, two of greeny-purple-tinged small blueberries each, and three of perfect raspberries. A few sun warmed deeply ripened little strawberries in the drying rows burst in our mouths. I had nothing but raspberries for lunch, and felt well content… I left an offering of a strand of beads to the great oak tree that watches over the farm, and I believe it was accepted.
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More good things. (Because they are good, and because I’m still upset and need the discipline of identifying positives.) Read more... )

Many good things, yes, and one is having time to be here!
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music

hugs

connecting

well timed tears

Mt. Hood in sunlight over the shoulder of Mt. Tabor

my mom being awesome

time off

having strategies and prep for Things and recognizing that they apply

long sunlit hours

you

<3
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Some wonderful things from the last few days:

- Plants growing up through the cracks in the concrete including: red clover, wheatgrass, sorrel, spiny lettuce aka sundial plant, dandelion.

- The scents of: honeysuckle hedges, assorted rose blossoms.

- Cherries, raspberries, and cloudberries fruiting. Figs, plums, and blackberries almost ripe.

- Bumblebees buzzing in flowers and the flowers flopping sideways with the weight of the bee and this is perfectly fine and an okay thing.

- Sounds of: bumblebees and honeybees buzzing around; birds shouting at each other; wind on the water in the river.

- A bag of small offcut pieces of local wood for making kids' blocks, handed to me when I stopped to look at the trash of a furniture artist. *happyflap*

- Pride jewelry including some patterns I've wistfully imagined for a long time.

- People in my online liking my ideas enough to run with them. It is so surprising and neat!

Health stuff: Read more... )
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I am SO PROUD of my kindergarteners. Today they graduated to first grade! I cried of course. I got lots of hugs and some really sweet reactions/recognition from parents. And I am SO READY for it to be summer - these couple of days of clean up and professional development cannot go fast enough. And, thankfully, there WILL BE summer meals at school, and summer activities. And we got a lot done! And they have grown so much. Oh my gods. *sniff*
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Good corner for composting, useful earthworms, access to comfrey leaves, and good soil. I have already composted and harvested and spread compost from a batch of weeds I pulled when I got the plot in April; it is ridiculously quick. Slugs tho ... I'm ambivalent about slugs.

Working water tap and hose are not far from bed. Toolshed is very convenient (right across path!) and contains some useful tools including larger items I couldn't really realistically buy. Usable porta-potty outside garden gate. Parking nearby. Picnic table under fig tree that is great for climbing. Great set-up, some issues but really good features.

Mostly polite neighbors in the other community beds, speaking at least 4 different languages.

Plants growing at the moment: pole beans, bush beans, tomatoes, corn, radishes, chamomile, lemon cucumber, melon, kale, chard, last year's mystery brassica going to seed, thyme, spinach shoots, garlic, strawberries, basil, basil, oregano, kinnikinnick, stevia, one tiny carrot leaf in the whole row, maybe more strawberries.

Already harvesting: radish thinnings, snips of thyme, foraged greens from neighboring untended beds, and STRAWBERRIES OM NOM.
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Chairs. Chairs are a very good for tired.

Beds. Also good.

Got food. Food I can eat. Yes.

Water. Properly filtered now with filter from store. Yes, so many chores we did. Yay water.

NOT grateful for brain not fully boot up all day, but okay. Grateful for at least not feeling BAD on top of not think properly; feel okay, just can hardly process, and body does not want to energy. Or heavy things - heavy things are a clear firm NO DO NOT I WILL MAKE YOU SORRY IF YOU DO THAT so I was good and did not do that today. Difficult. Thanks. Yes. I am grateful for S moved all the heavy groceries and laundry. S is good.

Garden yessss and the little plants. I cannot words. But happy yes plants.
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Quick good things from the last week or so, no order:

Garden plot, and things sprouting and growing.

People who stop to help strangers.

Guinea pig cuddle-squeaks.

Sunlight and finally being warm enough.

Access to water in some situations where it could've easily been unavailable.

... State of the me: still very stressed and exhausted, but hanging in there; good things help. And so do you; thanks for reading.
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Grateful for:

moments of courage

planning for effective help & mutual support with partner

sunshine and rain making things grow

completely ridiculous flowers

got my meds

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