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I repotted a plant, reorganized the garden window, rearranged the cozy corner to add a beanbag, put some books on shelves, and continued dismantling and repurposing a very battered free dresser. I did not go to either of two events I vaguely meant to go to, but I did make my apartment feel homier and livelier in several ways. I’m mildly concerned about self-isolating choices, though I did have a good conversation or two with coworkers today, but I will absolutely do a People Thing or two this weekend. Ironically I did not yet repot the one plant I actually got this week, a basil plant; but the little pine tree looks much happier in a big pot with more soil and twigs and compost and moss.
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And the past few days, in spite of having a cold & ear infection.
Yes, honestly. I'm not doing the itemized list now. I might come back and add it later.

I feel sad. (Warning, here be All The Breakup Angst with bonus general woe-is-me) Read more... )

So, that was a lot of feelings. Comments are welcome but it may take me ... awhile to be ready to reply to them.

I'm going to try to have a GOOD day at work tomorrow.

And I'm going to tend my plants before bed. And look up Meetups.

(Oh, I tried plugging in my computer charger one last time before going to the Apple Store. It worked. (wry face))
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I have a cold and feel vaguely terrible but also want company, so I’ll be watching this space.

My current tea: generic black tea a la Lipton, coz I can’t taste it. Going to make some peppermint sweet tea in a bit though.

What’ll you have? *puts kettle on*

ETA: Various folks have brought scones, ginger snaps, and Girl Scout cookies, which may be assumed to be baked in whatever sort of gluten-free, low-glycemic, dairy-free, or whatever manner the eaters desires and feels necessary. We also seem to have All The Tea at this point, with special attention to things that help knock back colds and other minor illnesses. Teatime manners here consist of being not deliberately knocking someone’s tea on the floor ( eying fellow felines known to exist in various households ) though if it should occur by accident I also have All The Paper Towels.

Old friends and new acquaintances are both very much welcome.

ETAA: this particular tea party is now excused to go tidy up or take naps, but given the enthusiastic response, I will repeat this event!
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I took a baaaaaaaaath.

This post could have actual content but this is okay too.
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(Moderately good news, not bad, but lots of stressful topics) Read more... )
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Just making one of those regular chickens. Read more... )
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There are actually a lot of these.

(CW: interpersonal angst, housing instability, safety plans for risky situations, school job, food) Read more... )

So far, the second day of 2019 was better than the first one, and it seems possible to continue the upward trend for a bit.
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Yesterday was the worst day of a shitty year. But! It contained a corn-chip-stealing, rocking-ottoman-riding, black and white cat, so that was a good thing. As was the four year old telling knock-knock jokes with the punchline ‘Land shark! Nom nom nom!’ Read more... )
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S broke up with me this morning.

I am staying at a hotel.

No break-up or relationship advice or I-told-you-so-esque well-wishes right now please. General expressions of sympathy are fine, as is talking about other topics.

I have plans for this evening - New Years, sheesh - with friends that are nowhere near the House Full Of Bees, and I know that said friends will absolutely understand if I run out of spoons and have to cancel. I have the car, I have my phone, computer, personal documents, medications, etc; I have a change of clothes; I have spent the day doing coping things like a long walk in a hilly park, a personal nature ritual for moving onwards, eating an actual lunch, and a spontaneous drive to nip over the border to a literal different state and look at the pretty mountains before finding the hotel. Oh and crying. Crying is a seriously underrated coping mechanism.
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Had a reasonably productive day. Slight schedule crunch likely tomorrow morning, so trying to get to sleep early. Working on that whole 'housing' thing, also trying to retain or create some traction on 'functional human with some functional relationships.' Will be all right tonight, I think.
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I made it to the airport. There's hours and hours until my flight.

I have a week with my family, away from the house but with support and connectivity to work on things as I need to. Things aren't *great* with S but we are BOTH trying and we said our farewells on a marginally positive note, and with love and greetings for each other's families.

I made it this far. I get to go be with my *family* now.

I'm going to let myself emotionally crash for a bit. This is such a relief.
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So tired.

Did many things. Tomorrow is flight for trip to visit folks. Need to finish packing.

May lie down a bit first. Not flying out first thing. Want to be packed and able to go. Need a break first anyway.
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... and packing Read more... )

Stopped for a break at a coffee shop. Read more... ) Got a good book to reread on computer.
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Got a storage unit. Read more... )

<3

ETA:

I took that nap! I am much more coherent, and also not now at the house, but taking a break at a bookstore with some nice hot tea.

I have accomplished things!

Read more... )

Whew!

And I remembered to stop and relax a bit. Thus the tea, and the next hour to relax at Powell's.

Read more... )
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I was around today and I did things and it wasn't awful.

Need break. Will try to rest a bit.

Thanks finch and kengr; you know why.
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I might not post today if I waited until I had a whole coherent thing waiting, so there is a big possibility of me repeatedly editing to add. As of the evening, it's a pretty solid list, and yes, there were multiple edits.

List of things DONE because I don't want to redo my to-do list and I need to notice positives and accomplishments. Read more... )
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Dear Dreamwidth,

I’m hanging in there.

Some accomplishments:

Food is better.
(cut for food, food issues) Read more... )

Worked.
(cut for: discussion of school job) Read more... )

Took a break at Powell’s. Coffee, books, restful.
(cut for: discussion of bad thoughts) Read more... )
Some self-care I did today: hot tea; dancing with the kinder kiddos at their wiggle break; eating tasty snacks; picking where to take my afternoon coffee break on the basis of where I really wanted to be rather than where was closest; hugging my stuffed animal; messaging briefly with friends; letting myself stop and rest and take deep breaths and visualize relaxing, instead of rushing to the next thing; wearing favorite jewelry.

Emailed with my parents. Good news.
Some significant good news: My parents are on board to help me. (cut for: details about housing, adult parents of adults) Read more... ) And I get to see them next Wednesday!!! And my kitties!!!

Talked with S. Made food for S.
Some small bad news: (cut for tricky stuff) Read more... )

Since I was in kitchen, put away some dishes, ran some more dishes, wiped down counters, wiped OUT section of stove that looked like a grease fire waiting to happen, wiped stove top, put away a few odds and ends, took out trash, new trash bag. (cut for discussion of boundaries around chores, negative emotions) Read more... )

Moved some boxes/bags. Sorted and folded laundry. Started another box for kitchen items.

Took a shower! And changed into clean clothes.

Checked Dreamwidth, briefly. Youse folks write a lot. Thanks.
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Got going on time.
(Cut for food, meds, sleep, school job, coworker relationships) Read more... )

Cut for: chores, interactions with various people spanning a high to low level of getting along.
Read more... )

Put away dishes in the kitchen.

Cut for: strained relationships Read more... )

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